Yes, it’s no secret that I love me some Beyonce. However, the song “FLAWLESS” may be misleading. Yes, I am so supportive of music that makes you feel amazing about yourself. But being flawless isn’t a real thing. I think I finally realize that…
I have been by myself for about a month now. In this month, I have learned a lot about the person I was, the person I am, and the person I wish to become. It’s funny how when things are quiet you start to see yourself clearer than before. So today, I have decided to list the things that I need to work on. I believe it’s important to recognize them and to share them. Not only to hold myself accountable, but to let people know that we all struggle with our own demons. It’s life! We must recognize them in order to take one step closer to this “flawless” characteristic that we are aiming for.
1. Dramatic- why am I sooooo dramatic? Some may say that I am just passionate, and even though that is so kind of someone to say…it’s still not a great quality. I have really been evaluating situations in my life and how I approach them and I could not be more embarrassed. So this is the biggest thing I will be working towards to improving. I don’t want to be dramatic. Nor, do I want the attention. Never have. It’s like it’s a natural bad habit that I possess and I don’t realize that how poorly I react to a situation until it happened.
2. Others opinions- I have been working on this since college. I held such an unhealthy stress on myself about trying not to stand out, I didn’t want others to look at me… What would they say? Would they make fun of me? Would they hurt me? Who cares? We all have a feeling of vulnerability within ourselves when it comes to others views. We mustn’t worry about others thoughts on us. “We are not defined on others opinions of us.” –Taylor Swift
3. STOP degrading yourself. Forget about what others think of you, what do you think of yourself? Don’t be so hard on yourself. I always call myself fat, ugly, stupid, etc. STOP! I am going to start building myself up and not tearing down the person I should trust the most down, which is me. Our thoughts can be so vital in our complete mental, spiritual, and physical well-being. So treat yourself like you wish others would treat you.
Bottom line, I have a lot to work on myself. I used to pretend I have nothing to fix and that I was “flawless.” However, here I am. Standing here with so much work to do. But I am working on it, and I hope that if you have similar traits, that you work on them too. Who knows? One day maybe we will “wake up, flawless.” Until then, my mission for self-improvement starts now. It’s not going to be an easy task, but it will be so worth it.