Days like today I am glad that I have this blog. Sometimes I wonder if people actually read/care about anything that is posted on this site. Regardless, the answer… I love having this is an outlet. I love being able to control the content and release the words that sometimes I can’t say out loud. I have been losing myself the past year, and no one is to blame but me. Many people that follow me on social media may be shocked because I show a life of bliss to the public. Don’t feel sorry for me, I allowed this to happen. I decided to keep walking the same path because I wanted it to lead me to happiness. Unfortunately, that wasn’t the case. I became a victim in my own prison. I enclosed myself in a cage that I could not breathe in and every day I convinced myself that this was my normal. While trapped in this self-imprisonment I lost who I was, I became cruel, I lost my smile, and most importantly I lost the happiness that I used to radiate. Until now.
Earlier this week, I decided to make the appropriate changes to get my life back. I am no longer wasting a second in my pursuit of happiness. Making this decision, I had to say goodbye to a very important person in my life. I want nothing but happiness in his life and I was unable to provide that. The steps I am taking are difficult. I am standing alone and outside my comfort zone…but this freedom to create a new path is necessary.
So please stay tuned, as I begin to take my first step into the unknown. Anything can happen.
Be happy and take a step of faith,